Reclaiming the Scene
There are so many things I regret. There are so many pieces of me i wish i could delete, give away, abolish. but maturity had taught me that i cannot. I need to love things about myself that no one else does, I need to understand my psyche more than any other human here. So many things keep me from love, or intimacy, but I’m over it. Yes, I have flaws, big flaws that affect others. Flaws I don’t necessarily say or talk about but I should disclose but I don’t. Because my reputation has always come first. Well I’m done living up to the popular girl I’ve become, I was deeper and happier in high school being less than that- so why degrade myself now. I am moody, I am pretty, I have flaws. Accept me and I’ll accept you. Disrespect me and I’ll disrespect you. this is not about the title, or popularity, it is about being real to me and those I care about. It is about being me and not being the front I put on for everyone.
This is about me loving me and appreciating those who helped that happen. thank you.